a friend in need is a friend indeed

 

life has been easy for you, she said.

 

she has been a good friend from high school till today. unfortunately, we lost contact when i graduated four years ago. both of us went to our own directions until recently, we managed to contact each other via facebook and made known that she is working just a stone throw away from where i’m studying now.

we shared secrets during our teenage days, mostly on boys. we did stupid things together too, like spent the whole day went in and out of each shop in klcc and bought the silliest, cheapest item just to collect the paperbags. sometimes we shared our lunch or dinner. and sometimes, we shared my bed and she will hijack my pillow when she spent a night at my room back in the uni.

we’ve grown up now. unraveling the inner feminism within us.

a little dash of maturity because we are still the giddy and fun girls we used to be, hehe

a merely two hours spent in catching up with life that we each other missed for the past four years over lunch were not enough. knowing that we are at par; education and career wise. we both have good family backgrounds, i knew her mother and she knew mine. but she lost in her relationship.

no, this is not a competition between me and her.

 

i guess, i was just being lucky, i said.

 

i wasn’t being arrogant nor showing off that i am someone’s fiance and marriage is just around the corner.

i was there, being the old friend that she knew. for being her support and giving her courage that life will not end just because a guy dumped her for another girl. we have other problems which we have think about in life.

guys are only side dishes to the chicken on the plate.

 

how do you become so strong? she sobbed.

 

she sees me as the one who giggles a lot, or the girl who never cries. she said, i didn’t change a thing even physically. except that i have grown emotionally strong. inside, i am still vulnerable and brittle too. but i never wanted anyone to see this. i want to be strong for the people around me and let them see me as a person whom they can count on.

i don’t have much friends  but i really appreciate those who think i am one. i could not repay with money but at least, i could be the shoulder for them to cry on.

 

easier said than done, friend. i replied.

 

positivity shapes the strong me today. i know, some of you may have gone through worst phase of your life, thus, i am talking and judging based only on my experiences. because i have no rights to judge yours. but please, do not hesitate to comment if you agree or disagree with any of my sayings.

i didn’t say forgetting someone and letting go all those bitter sweet memories could be done in a day.

i didn’t say that mending a broken heart is as easy as stitching a torn pants.

i didn’t against crying.

i didn’t object of having that wishful thinking that some day the guy will come back, bend on his knees, apologizes and the next day, you are back together again. crap.

i have been through all these shit. i recovered from my depression gradually. and  concurrently, i started to develop the positivity in me. its not easy to just brush things off without a strong mind control. there are times when we hit rock bottom and there is no harm in crying just to make us feel better.

 

but people said, the right one will come to you.

yes, someday.

but, we are told to work for it.

indeed. opening up ourselves to chances and opportunities is one of the option.

how?

there are so many possibilities in life that we do not know how Allah works His way. as a Muslim, gaining something should be through the effort and in parallel with our du’a.

eventually, your soul mate will come to you effortlessly.

but remember, its the friends that stick with you the whole time.

 

He knows best. just believe and have your faith in Him.

 

we parted ways.