hello..
currently i’m doing some readings and searching on the internet for articles, journals or e-books relating to maintenance management for my chapter 2, literature review. i’m studying building maintenance management, particularly on the maintenance costs in administration buildings in malaysia for my dissertation.
i’m due to submit the draft in mid december. gosh! that’ll be one and a half month to go. i am not more than 20 per cent of progress.
argghhhhhh!!!
you know what, i am not much of a procrastinator. but..you know, when you are reading something so deep and intense and so literature-y, you’ll tend to be very sleepy, right? sometimes, it may looked like i’m so focused reading the paragraphs, trying to extract points from the article; eyeballs rolling from left to right and down to the beginning of the sentence again, left to right and down, left to right and down…
left to right and down..
left to right and down….
and not knowing that the eyelids are half shut and droopy..the mind is already wandering elsewhere..
zzZZzzZZzz..
THUDD!! my pencil case dropped because my hand accidentally, unconsciously knocked it down and THAT woke me up from that slumber!
yeah, its that critical. is it? hehe anyway, to avoid from this situation to repeat, i turned on the radio loud enough for my next door neighbour to bang on my door and tell me to shut it up. kidding! hehe
sometimes, i’ll smash some dinosaur eggs on the computer or serve some sushis on the ipod to refresh the brain and feast the eyes to vibrant colours other than the black alphabets all over the white screen. it is so boring!
or, i’ll surf the net google-ing for references or things associated with wedding prep (which is next on the list of the-things-to-be-worried). or enjoyed reading blogs. this is so addictive and distracting! i need to get back on track, the right track!
i really wanna write my paper but i can’t ..you know, you need that mood or a state of a feeling that makes you so enthusiast to write. when the ideas are really flowing and you need to quickly type them out or you’ll spill and waste those creative juices away.
unfortunately, i didn’t happen now. so, to swallow my guilt of not being able to perform my actual intention (read: as of right now), i ended up updating this blog. and i won’t sound guilty enough when the fiance called up to ask my whatabouts.
“what are you doing?”
“writing..”
“good!”
or, when mama and abah peeked in to check out what i’m doing..
“what are you doing?”
“writing..”
“good!”
heyy this works! hehe but i guess, i still have to write, right?
ok! no more procrastinating, or delaying, or stalling, or buying any time..let’s write baby!!!!
till then!!
