hello..
feels like i have not been writing in here for quite some time. since i can’t really sleep tonight, i decided that lets just stay up for a while and write a thing or two here..
as you can read in my previous post, i’m engaged to the man i truly love. who would expect the boy who used to be my classmate and also once an “enemy” (hehe) would be the soul mate. everything is so unexpected, i must say. we never contacted each other after graduation (more or less three years) but yet, we got acquainted in a very short period of time. i was also shocked on how mama and abah responded so well when i took him home to meet the parents. he is a soft-hearted gentleman and such a sweet talker too! he’s my strength now. i truly am grateful that God has created such a beautiful way and let me take a long path before meeting him, who is just next door.
alhamdulillah, everything went well although it was a very very simple occasion but the crowd that came who made it merrier. honestly, i really feel blessed because the long awaited love that i have been praying for all this while is now mine. the parents blessed our relationship.
we’ve also been advised by the elders to take care of ourselves during this “darah manis” phase. not to go out much. take care of each other’s feelings, especially. respect, toleration and mutual understanding would really come in handy during this period of time. insya allah, till death do us part.
moving on..
i have four major things to worry.
the first two major things: currently i have two part time jobs, at flexible time with so-so payrolls. yeah, it might sounds easy but hell no, they took a lot of my time. although i don’t really have to go to the office much but still i have to stay in touch with the work at home. internet connection is vital to me to access the email, etc. but this will only last till the end of the year. and i really need a job because first, abah will be super duper angry if i’m jobless; second, i, myself needs to maintain and remain my sanity by working or else i’ll be dumb!; and finally, i need money to get married!
please, anybody out there, if you have any job vacancies, please share it with me, ok! thank you!
the third major thing: my thesis writing! i have to have it done by january, which means, i only have three months to go to collect and analyse data, and write them all up! GOSHHH!! i am kinda ambitious to have this thesis to be a very practical write-up. but due to time constraint, i don’t know how far could i go, or it’ll be just another collection of thesis writing.
i hope, pray and will do the best.
and the final major thing: of course, the wedding preparation! i never thought that i would come to this stage, to the extent of being someone’s wife (to-be). and to worry about all these preparations. i enjoyed weddings so much, especially helping out my brother’s and cousins’ weddings. staying up late with all the cousins and aunties with all the itsy bitsy things that makes a wedding so meaningful to the bride and groom. but having my own wedding?! i thought i’ll just be dreaming! haha! although my fiance and i have quite ample time to prepare for our day, but some things need to be done now. surveying for boutiques, cameraman, catering, etc. (and the list goes on) would also requires some patience and..we’ve got to be ready for some arguments too! (hehe)
i’m glad that mama and abah are still be able to help me out with the preparations and everything. i know, how excited they are. i want them to be satisfied and happy with every money, sweat and tears that they have spent for this preparations are worthy.
i only said to mama, “ma, just do whatever you like; whatever colour you want, whatever concept or theme, just about everything, please do the honour of choosing them as you wish. i want it to be your dream wedding. i’ll be happy as much as you are.“
seriously, i don’t mind at all. i want my mama and abah to be my wedding planner. such a baby me hehe!
ok then, its getting late. thought of doing some thinking for my thesis writing, but yeah, i’ve done my part on just thinking about it haha! ok, ok, got to be serious on this but lets just sleep now and continue with the worries tomorrow hehe
till then, bye!
